Nocturnal Omissions

Treason

1 : the betrayal of a trust : treachery

2 : the offense of attempting by overt acts to overthrow the government of the state to which the offender owes allegiance or to kill or personally injure the sovereign or the sovereign's family



To Goreans, it is probably the most disgusting word. And yet, I find myself very close to being charged of it on two counts.

After starting the letter last night, I burned it in the stove at the shop. The first was sent, but with a sensible gift that could only be considered helpful under current circumstances. It was accepted gracefully, as was the invitation, and that was that. It was the appointment that never happened, which may be for the best. And yet, my mind still goes in that direction from time to time, before I come to my senses and shut it off.

The mark, it has not been on my wrist for long, at least not in comparison to the number of years of effort behind it. But recent events have splintered the group it signifies, and treason is back on the lips of many. I formally ended my association with the thin Merchant, but still regularly practice the skills that gained me the place I am in now.

Man going against his own conscience, it is a form of treason all its own. Of following desires, I am less certain. I have too often gone that route, with bad result.