Prophecy

Not so long ago, I had a plan. Well, two possible plans really. I had no way of knowing if they would work out, and I had searched for cards. I did not find the cards, but the bearer of the original deck, found me. Long enough to let me know happiness was within reach.

Matilda, the hith that belongs to Therise. It is said by reliable sources, that she is capable of telling the future. I had never had a reading by her until recently, had been going based on my own wants and the cards. What she said, has thrown things off course.

Sometimes you are unsure which is worse, the rage itself or the helplessness that you wade in. Her. Then him. Your thoughts bounce back and forth from her and him, then to them. Series of disappointments, you have that bitter taste in your mouth again and you want, instead to taste something different. Usually, you cling and hang in there for the small one. But even you know that is not enough. It won't feel like this, forever. But. There is a woman with a beautiful body, in the city of Ar. She has even skin that is flawless, and eyes like a beautiful jungle cat. Her voice is appealing and she will appeal to you on some level. She is the one you need to avoid. There is something in her that is manipulative and vapid. She is not the one. And she will help to topple the little haven you have created, if you let her in.

At the time, only part of my plan had been implemented, successfully. The second part was pending, and now I have to figure out who this other is. If it is the one I believe it to be, my second part will never happen. If it is the one that has been suggested to me, likewise. But the one suggested, has been told she would have a son in two years.